Obesession.

I think I'm going to get really annoying to everyone pretty soon (if I haven't already). All I can think about or talk about or post facebook statuses about is Taiwan. It consumes at least 80% of my thoughts. I miss it so much. For the first few days home, I spent most of my time sleeping or being so tired that I didn't really think or care about anything.

Now that I'm starting to have to live real life at home again, it's really really hitting me how much my experiences in Taipei mean to me. There are so many people there that I would basically give my left arm to see again right now. Everyone there was so kind to me and I met so many new people that I really love...it's just hard for me to think about not seeing them again for at least a year, if ever. I mean, right now I have every intention of going back to Taiwan at some point, even if I don't end up living there. But the exciting and scary thing about life is that you just never know what will happen.

I know that the trip I was on isn't necessarily a picture of what it would be like to live there for an extended period of time. It was fun being a tourist and visiting things like Taipei 101, but what I really miss are the everyday sights and sounds of the city. I miss waking up and going to Ed's Cafe for breakfast every morning. I miss the convenience stores where I can buy milk tea while surrounded by the smell of tea eggs (I'm not saying I like the smell, but I got used to it and it's weird that it's not there now). I miss the liveliness of the city...the masses of people everywhere, and how all those people have learned to live together pretty peacefully. I miss walking into a store and hearing five Lady Gaga songs in a row. I miss sqeezing onto an almost-full subway car. I miss my students. I miss tofu that acutally tastes good (I mean, I can try to cook tofu myself all I want but it's just not the same...). I miss dodging scooters every time I cross the street. I miss night markets. I miss being able to find really good tea basically anywhere. I just miss the everyday living parts of Taipei.

I have some serious thinking and praying to do right now. On one hand, I know that I really love Taipei and there are tons of people there that I love SO much...but on the other hand, it would be really really hard to move to Taipei knowing I'm not coming back home in just a few weeks. There are things and people here that I would miss too...

I think that's the hardest thing about life for me...I can't move on to something new without having to say some really hard goodbyes...

So on that note, I have to go pack because I'm moving back to River Falls today. I guess life just keeps on going even if I'm not ready for it, huh?